It’s two days until the new year and there’s a part of me that wants to react to this insane amount of acceleration happening but this other part of me just wants to savour every moment, at this moment. I’m done being stressed.
I’ve learned so much this year, just so much and like so many others, I can only come to this conclusion. I am grateful and what better way to enter a new year than with gratefulness and thankfulness. This entire year has been so much, and I can only gather that it has been so good simply because God is so good. He is so good to me, so, so, so good.
I found grace like never before, I’ve learned to say no even more. I’m thankful for my family and friends. This year my dad came back to church, I started my business, I got a job, I suddenly have a “ministry” in church, I was a part of the publications team in Power & Love School SG and I got to sit right at the front when there were pastors and legends sitting behind and at the sides.
Looking back, none of that could’ve been achieved by my own strength because this year was also the year I was as weak as can be, pressed from all sides – my health, finances, relationships (a little bit, but in the end, I gained some really awesome friends this year and strengthen all the ones I already have), emotional, spiritual, mental… just, all points YET I see how He is SO THERE and SO MUCH GREATER.
Even when I was so weak in faith, He is SO STRONG and SO FAITHFUL.
The whole of 2018 felt like me tryna’ run but I was crawling but like at the same spot while He flies me around.
This year I broke through fears and self-doubt like never before. I didn’t realise this before but He has really made me bold.
I’m really excited for 2019, not in all the ways I used to be excited, but I’m excited in a very different way – yes for the more but also for the depth, the deep quiet strength He is about to teach me about. Meekness. Stillness. Unending joy. Hope. Abundant life and love. For the fullness. For just simply more of Him, more than ever. And yes, rest.
This is the best love story ever.